The Planet of Cham

And so...it ends. I am officially putting to rest "The Planet of Cham". Why? This blog has done it's job for me. It started back in the Summer of 2008 when I went through the hardest time in my life. I experienced loss, hurt, disappointment, bitterness, brokenness, redemption, renewal, recovery, and a new response. I shared my hurts and life on here during that time in a creative and fashionable manner. I was amazed how God used my self-destruction to reach out to others. It was totally worth it, so others can see an incredible God and have hope. So this blog did its purpose. So that is why I am leaving it to lay rest. I am not deleting it. Because every so ofter, I time travel back through the post, to see and be reminded of what God did in my life.

"It is a poverty to decide that a child must die so that you may live as you wish."

-- Mother. Teresa

"We have a strange illusion that mere time cancels sin. But mere time does nothing either to the fact or to the guilt of a sin."

--C.S. Lewis "The Problem of Pain"

11 years as a Christ-follower & I still don't get why God chooses to keep blessing me. I understand, but I don't understand. I understand it according to His word & character, but I don't understand when it comes to my shortcomings, failures, disappointments, and weaknesses. I guess that is grace. That is the real love that truly impacts people.

Day 6 of 21 food fasting & prayer. So far, its the longest that I have ever fasted. I am really seeking God on some keys things in my life. The church that I was attending before I moved to the PNW does a yearly 21 day fast along with 900 other churches across the nation. I felt that God was calling me to do it as well. It has been an interesting 6 days. God has really been cleaning me up spiritually. I am able to see "minor" things that I would normally overlook and downplay. I am really expecting something big from God through this.

Insert taken from C.S. Lewis's "Screwtape Letters":

I have found out that over the years just being yourself with a humble willingness for growth is the best way to carry out social interaction. Glamour (UNreality) just clutters and mask only for so long.

Brushing up on some personality, strengths, & spiritual gift test. I think it is good to evaluate yourself from time to time so you can excel. Somethings need to be worked on and encouraged, others let loose and encouraged.

Some days I look at God and say, " You totally have jacked up my life...but in a good way." Which reminds me that hardships are just His way of increasing the intimacy between mine and His relationship.

The more I studied God's word is the more I realize that for years I have been letting my culture (for me Americanism) bend and shape His truth to fit with my comfort and life. This was not done out of rebellion, but out of a selfish luke warm, safe approach to life that now leaves me wondering if I missed some really incredible things with God when I was younger. I am thank that God still loves me and still is catching me up.

Going to start blogging in words again...I just feel that God is stirring my heart and no telling what is to come from it. I look to this as an overflow of what is to come.