Tuesday, January 19, 2010

MT throws it down...

"It is a poverty to decide that a child must die so that you may live as you wish."

-- Mother. Teresa


Can't really expound on this b/c it was so well put.


Saturday, January 16, 2010

A strange illusion...

"We have a strange illusion that mere time cancels sin. But mere time does nothing either to the fact or to the guilt of a sin."

--C.S. Lewis "The Problem of Pain"

Friday, January 15, 2010

Baffled...

11 years as a Christ-follower & I still don't get why God chooses to keep blessing me. I understand, but I don't understand. I understand it according to His word & character, but I don't understand when it comes to my shortcomings, failures, disappointments, and weaknesses. I guess that is grace. That is the real love that truly impacts people.


-cham

Going on 21...



Day 6 of 21 food fasting & prayer. So far, its the longest that I have ever fasted. I am really seeking God on some keys things in my life. The church that I was attending before I moved to the PNW does a yearly 21 day fast along with 900 other churches across the nation. I felt that God was calling me to do it as well. It has been an interesting 6 days. God has really been cleaning me up spiritually. I am able to see "minor" things that I would normally overlook and downplay. I am really expecting something big from God through this.

I share this as an adventure more than a "look how spiritual I am" type deal. Believe me, fasting is not on the top of my list. Who knows.. I will keep you posted on things God shows me.

-cham

Thursday, January 14, 2010


Uncle Screwtape writing to his nephew Wormwood on distracting Christians from prayer:
Insert taken from C.S. Lewis's "Screwtape Letters":

If this fails, you must fall back on a subtler misdirection of his intention. Whenever they are attending to the Enemy Himself we are defeated, but there are ways of preventing them from doing so. The simplest is to turn their gaze away from Him towards themselves. Keep them watching their own minds and trying to produce feelings there by the action of their own wills. When they meant to ask Him for charity, let them, instead, start trying to manufacture charitable feelings for themselves and not notice that this is what they are doing. When they meant to pray for courage, let them really be trying to feel brave. When they say they are praying for forgiveness, let them be trying to feel forgiven. Teach them to estimate the value of each prayer by their success in producing the desired feeling; and never let them suspect how much success or failure of that kind depends on whether they are well or ill, fresh or tired, at the moment.

Wednesday, January 13, 2010

Glamour...

I have found out that over the years just being yourself with a humble willingness for growth is the best way to carry out social interaction. Glamour (UNreality) just clutters and mask only for so long.

Jottings of an ENTP

Brushing up on some personality, strengths, & spiritual gift test. I think it is good to evaluate yourself from time to time so you can excel. Somethings need to be worked on and encouraged, others let loose and encouraged.


I am an ENTP:

1) Thing that was that affirmed something that I have always realized and felt:

Throughout their careers, ENTPs want their work to be enjoyable, with interesting possibilities for applications. Additionally, having their work widely acclaimed and accepted as a unique contribution would be highly gratifying for ENTPs. They also weave in vacations whenever possible and want a flexible work schedule.

Yep, totally feel this way, but trying to process through it and see benefits & problematic areas.

Monday, January 11, 2010

Some days..

Some days I look at God and say, " You totally have jacked up my life...but in a good way." Which reminds me that hardships are just His way of increasing the intimacy between mine and His relationship.


-cham

Thursday, January 7, 2010

The more..

The more I studied God's word is the more I realize that for years I have been letting my culture (for me Americanism) bend and shape His truth to fit with my comfort and life. This was not done out of rebellion, but out of a selfish luke warm, safe approach to life that now leaves me wondering if I missed some really incredible things with God when I was younger. I am thank that God still loves me and still is catching me up.


-cham

“It is true that God may have called you to be exactly where you are. But, it is absolutely vital to grasp that he didn’t call you there so you could settle in and live your life in comfort and superficial peace.” - Francis Chan


Tuesday, January 5, 2010

Couch

My observation & guess insist that most of my brothers and sisters miss out on something way bigger than themselves because they are all on board with God as long as He sits with them on their comfortable couch. HE is a God of Comfort, not a God of comfortability.

-just thoughts & processes

Monday, January 4, 2010

Going to start..

Going to start blogging in words again...I just feel that God is stirring my heart and no telling what is to come from it. I look to this as an overflow of what is to come.

-cham

Saturday, January 2, 2010