Sunday, December 7, 2008

Unknown is the new comfortability...

To be transparent...

     God has really been "unlearning" me on some things. They may not make sense, so let me explain. In "learning" 50% of it is "unlearning". That means that you are taking away an old idea or habit, and replacing it with a new one...that is more beneficial. So in saying that, God is unlearning me on some things. As you know (hopefully), I am heading to Seattle on Jan 5, 2009. God has called me out there to serve with a church plant. The crazy thing is that I have to raise my own support to be able to serve out there. I have never done this before. I am a rookie, 1st timer in raising support, helping plant a church, etc. In the midst of this, I would like to share what God is doing with me personally. 
     God is teaching me that "Unknown is the new comfortability". I usually enjoy the adventure of the unknown, it livens things up. This new journey is a little different though. In the past, I always had a "fall back plan" just in case the "unknown" failed or got weird. Well....God has me at this point not having that "plan". In fact, I have been taught that my plan is actually a lack of faith in Him. OUCH! Yes, I have to agree with Him on that. Use to when push came to shove, I would take the wheel if I got uncomfortable or if the risk was too high. Can I just go ahead and say, THIS WAS WRONG! Why? I never gave God an opportunity to show up and show off who He is. Yes, He doesn't need me to "ok" Him to move, but I think a lot of times He chooses not to because we(I) would say that I pulled it out (if not verbally..then in my heart). So...God has been unlearning me on this while I am on this journey to head to Seattle. 
     Since I have started sharing the vision of God's mission for me in Seattle, God has given me some commands to follow. Check it out along with my response:
1) Share the Vision - Plant Seeds with everybody
    My response: No problem

2) Do not take control of this.
    My response: I promise I will not. I know how I use to be, and I don't want to be that now.

3) Do not market, overly advertise, or use smooth slick talking to raise money.
    My response: Uh..so don't function in how I normally communicate a need? What am I      
    suppose to do? Tap dance? (I asked this..God can handle sarcasm). Ok...I promise I won't, but
    how am I suppose to go about this?

4) Spread the word & just ask people to "Pray & Obey"
     My response: Hmmmm....but how am I suppose to explain the details of the needs, how I     
     am going to need certain things to being this ministry...? What if they don't obey...or pray? 
     What if that is to vague and they say "are you kidding?"

5) I told you...share the vision and then tell them "Pray and Obey". Do you trust me?
     My response: Yes, I trust you, but this is way out of my comfort zone. Meeting new people 
     easy. Doing some thing new and in a new area...great! Sitting back, when most people 
     suggest being super active when it comes to raising funds...SO UNCOMFORTABLE! This 
     unknown challenges my comfortability. Did I mention not a huge time frame to get    
     the word out?

6) I gave you a word: Eccl 11:5-6
     My response: Ok..I trust you, but this still freaks me out. I haven't heard much from nobody.

7) Trust me. I want you & others to know and experience ME at work.
     My response: Ok..You know I will struggle with this..but I trust You. I am comfortable in 
     who You are in my life. You are my Provider. You spoke the world and all the laws of nature 
     in to existence, so this is a cakewalk for You.

8) My grace is sufficient. Trust Me, Follow Me, and let Me walk you through.
     My response: Ok Lord...I am comfortable with this unknown..because I am comfortable     
     in You.

I share all this in transparency. This situation will come one day for every believer...probably multiple times in our lifetime. I just want to say that the unknown is comfortable...because God is there. We only get freaked out when we loose sight of how Great and Big He really is. I can't really describe the feeling, but the ones who have walked this situation (speaking about the unknown) know what I am talking about. God is unlearning me. I am confident in my future, because my future is in His hands. He will provide. He will lay out the adventure. I just need to make sure that my comfortability is in Him while I am in the unknown. 

So I Pray & Obey as well. Then I enjoy the journey instead of letting worry and doubt ruin it. 

Trust Him...He has you covered in every situation. 

Much love - Cham

It's late..so this is a rough draft and probably grammatically crazy...oh well.

1 Comment:

  1. Joanna K. Harris said...
    Cham,
    I know exactly what you nean! It's so hard to "unlearn" things, but so valuable. I praise God for the things He's teaching you and how He's transforming you for His glory. I'm praying for your needs and excited to see how God will provide in His way & time!
    Keep walking by faith!
    God bless,
    -Joanna

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